Um Quotes

don’t get your hopes up.

I hate falling in love because i'm terrified of heights
and when I finally hit the ground I feel my entire body break
and when I look around I realize there's no one there. I fell and you left.
Now i'm left to pick up my shattered body and try to piece myself back together,
while you're still whole and with someone new.

I mess up a lot, and I know I make a lot of mistakes. I will push you away when I want you closer. I let my emotions swallow me. I will take things out on you and say things I never meant to say. But you mean everything to me. There's nothing I love more than you. Please don't leave me because you're the only thing that makes me happy and i'm so sick of being sad.

There was something in the room, faceless and afraid. I asked if you could feel it, this thing between us, and you looked so worried - so sick - that I let it dance away. Sometimes I wish that if only you had felt it too.

I would strip my skin off for you. I would let you see me, whole, with no inhibitions. I would strip my skin off for you, leaving nothing left but flesh and bone, and the tendons that flex beneath my muscle. I would let you view me in this state, entirely bare and vulnerable, and I will do it because you have simply asked. I would endure the stares and the ridicule, the sneering and the harassment, because I am doing this for you; because you asked me to. The difference is, as I streak blood throughout the house and my skin slowly dries within the closet, you will do nothing. You will not reassure me and you will hardly look my way. I have felt that recently, you have wanted to see me as a half. You no longer wish to see me as I am, but instead hidden in plain sight, shrouded in my skin. I have ground embarrassed and ashamed, but I can no longer go back; I no longer fit within my skin. I wish I could grow it back, to hide again. Perhaps then you will start loving me.