*Freedom*

story time. My boyfriend and i were supposed to get breakfast. We woke up early.I wanted to shower, he didnt. I headed in the shower by myself.He knows I spend a while in tbe shower, but when I left the bathroom, he was not happy.He wasn’t talking to me, and when I asked what was weong, he said it’s because I showered too long.So I didn’t want to go for breakfast anymore, and I said that. he swerved the car, almost into a ditch.He was egging me on the whole car ride, I stayed quiet because I was always afraid he would hit me.We went back to my house, he stormed upstairs and started packing all his stuff.He went inside the bathroom and burned himself with a lighter and said it was my fault.He said he was going to go committ.He said if we don’t go for breakfast, I would never see him again and our relationship was done.I went for breakfast.Looking back, I’m glad I broke up with him.

I fell in love

Sent from heaven

If I find

The man who loves me

The man who needs me

More than you ever did

Its a shame that this is where my heart must be left

In the giant holes of hell i once called heaven

Since i thought you were my heaven

this isnt love

this is you using me to love yourself even more

just stop acting like i mean something to you

because I know I dont

but everytime you look at me

i feel my muscles fall numb

Maybe I have fallen numb to the chirping of the birds early mornings, since I do not remember the last time they annoyed me. Rather they caused such a heavy weight to fall upon my heart, reminding me that I returned to consciousness, and was stolen from the illusion that consisted of dreams I wished my life reflected. Even the rays from the sunlight passing by the curtains and exploring my room, did not brighten my gaze, instead a long sigh escaped my mouth. I was alive. I was alive, one would say with excitement. Or rather, I am alive, correct? However, the feeling of being alive, I don't remember it, nor have I felt it in long years.

i wish i could show you how unimportant you are to me but I know that’s a lie since my heart flutters every time you’re around