and i miss how playful you were with me. i miss the way you

how playful you were with me. i miss the way you would smile down at me, how you would playfully make fun of me. i miss how you were the only one i could talk to. i miss how you didn't care about sweaty hands or messy hair. i miss how you stood there and made me take my makeup off. i miss your laugh. i miss your hugs. i miss texting for hours and hours. i miss how you called me "baby". i miss how you'd pull me on top of you, just to say hi. i miss how you were protective of me. i miss the butterflies from when i thought about you. i miss how you kissed me spontaneously - in my kitchen closet, making cookies, playing games on my phone. i miss seeing your eyes light up when i saw you. i miss seeing your face at my front door when i told you i didnt feel good. i miss how you actually did love me, even though i was too stupid to see that. and i regret ever letting you go.