she may come
across
as hard to get, but
that's because
she's been through a
few things, seen a few things
b e e n t h e
r e a n d d o n e
t h a t ,
she's cold...
yes, but only because
s h e o n c e c a r e d a b o u t
s o m e o n e
who failed to care
about her,
she's
built a fortress to protect her
heart
from
further
damage.
you told her that you're different,
b u t s h e w o n ' t b e l i e v e i t u n t i l y o u p r o v e i t ,
words don't mean a thing,
actions are everything.
and
i miss
how playful you were with me. i miss the way you would smile down at me, how you would playfully make fun of me. i miss how you were the only one i could talk to. i miss how you didn't care about sweaty hands or messy hair. i miss how you stood there and made me take my makeup off. i miss your laugh. i miss your hugs. i miss texting for hours and hours. i miss how you called me "baby". i miss how you'd pull me on top of you, just to say hi. i miss how you were protective of me. i miss the butterflies from when i thought about you. i miss how you kissed me spontaneously - in my kitchen closet, making cookies, playing games on my phone. i miss seeing your eyes light up when i saw you. i miss seeing your face at my front door when i told you i didnt feel good. i miss how you actually did love me, even though i was too stupid to see that. and i regret ever letting you go.
i'm sorry,
i'm sorry that i'm such
an idiot.
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