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Hey y'all.
Just gonna do a quick update.
I'm a month and a half into senior year.
Half of my friends are currently not talking to me.
The other half are but I also don't care to see any of them at the moment.
I'm not surprised October is throwin a terrible curve at me.
I expected it. I also don't it expect to last throguh the whole of October either.
Even if it does, I know I'm going to be okay.
Just Sunday night, I cried myself to sleep.
Last night I did the same.
I don't know what happened within the last 24 hours but I don't care.
I do not care what happens from now til whenever.
As long as I'm alive, have my family and dogs, I don't care.
I know in time, they'll talk to me when they realize they are in the wrong, since I have done nothing.
But if it takes longer than expected, so be it.
I'll survive.
It's so fcking refreshing to know that.
It's so refreshing to be able to say that.
I know I'm going to be okay.
I may not be entirely whole now, but this is life.
This is how it works. You have downfalls.
At least I'm somewhat aware of when mine will happen.
I'm going to be okay.

I just want to promise to whoever is reading this, that it does get better.
It might not happen tomorrow, or even next year.
It might take six years, like it did for me.
It might take longer, maybe shorter.
Either way, I promise you, years from now, you won't even remember why you were so stressed.
And if you do, I hope you're happy with your life at that moment and not living in the past.
It does get better.
It is worth the wait.
Be patient.
Be kind.
Live life as much and as possible as you can.
You will be alright.
I promise.

on the outside I am human on the inside I am pasta and sin

"When I was 7, I wanted to be 8. When I was 8, I wanted to be 12. When I turned 12, I just wanted to be 18. Then after that I stopped wanting to be older…I feel like I’ve spent my whole life so far wishing it all away. Always wishing I was older, wishing I was somewhere else, wishing I could remember and I wishing I could forget too. Wishing I hadn’t ruined so many good things because I was scared or bored."

"Many people lose the small joys in the hope for the big happiness."

"Suddenly you’re 21 and you’re screaming along in the car to all the songs you listened to when you were sad in middle school and everything is different but everything is good."

"I never had that many friends growing up so I learned to be okay with just me." - Priscilla Ahn

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I’m a hopeless bromantic, high five me in the rain, fistbump me gently as the sun sets.

"you’re better off being alone than being with someone who makes you feel alone."