i tried so hard
to get better
to get over this
to forget it all
and move on
and i thought i was getting to the
point where i could say
"wow i'm feeling a lot better"
but right now i couldn't
feel any worse.
There
were,
however, many
times when I
felt lonely, when
I had the aching
feeling that life
was passing by
me and that I was
missing something
very desirable.
Sometimes I
leaned on the sill
of my window and
looked out at the
night with a longing
that I was not able
to define, but one
which was
responsible for
many a sigh and
even a few tears.