Smileysarah12345

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Joined: June 20, 2009
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Birthday: August 26
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Sarahh (:
Hi I'm Sarah.  I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder while I was spending time in a mental hospital.  I'm not crazy, I was only there because of a suicide attempt. 

Quotes by Smileysarah12345

I know this sounds awful, but i love the word
suicide.
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You smoke weed?
That's cool.
I bet you won't think so when the cops find you.

You shoot heroin?
That's cool.
I bet you won't think so when you're in rehab.

You get drunk every night?
That's cool.
I bet you won't think so when you're getting your stomach pumped.

You sleep around?
That's cool.
I bet you won't think so when you're dying from AIDS.

You take bath salts?
That's cool.
I bet you won't think so after commiting homicide.

You drink and drive?
That's cool.
I bet you won't think so when you're in a coma.




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I'm above the influence, like if you are too.
 
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Seeing quotes
making fun of
crocs
..and then realizing you have them on

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the other day I was planning on killing myself
I didn't want to hang or bleed to death and i asked a few random people how they would kill themselves if they had to.  But i chickened out and didnt do anything that night, even though ive wanted to do this for a while. 
Yesterday in school, i found out someone anonymously reported i was planning on comminting suicide and im on

suicide watch. 
 

This means i cant be alone, lock any doors, or return to school. 

Thank you to whoever told.  You saved my life. Theyre getting me help for my depression. I dont know who you are but God bless you.

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& when she forgets you,
don't you dare
remember me .

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Last year,
My friend told me he was going to kill himself Christmas morning.  He was a mess.
Nothing I said would make him change his mind.
I went to church on Christmas Eve and prayed for him like crazy. When I came home, he ended up so mad at me becuase I kept saying it's bad to give up. Then I told him I prayed at church. He said something amazing happened while I was at church, though i couldn't really understand him. But i heard him say

"maybe there is a God".

It's been a year, he's still alive, in a support group for his depression, and is doing great.
I'm proiud of you, Kevin.

 
There's hope. And sometimes all you can do is
pray.
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Cutting is weak.

I'm not saying you're weak if you cut, you're just not being as strong as you could be. Cutting is easy. You feel like you're in control of your pain. But truth is, you've lost all control once that blade touches your skin. You let the pain win. I'm not saying cutting means you're weaker than someone who doesn't, because maybe their life isn't so hard, but cutting means you're not as strong as you could be. If you're dying inside and that blade is in front of you, the easy thing is to pick it up. The hard thing is to put it down. Put down that blade,

I know you're better than that.


Congradulations to
LydiaMargretPynn, xBrokenPromisesx, FoReVeRnnAlWaYs, Rockgoddess
and many more who stopped cutting.

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"a baby's gotta do,
what a baby's gotta do!"
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I love him, Dad.
You can't change that.
 

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"So me and my best friend got into a fight. My guy best friend. Now i know they say a guy and a girl could just be friends, but that wasn't the case. We pretended it was. But since the day we met, there was fire. Always love. Ok now back to the fight. It was stupid. After about an hour I felt bad. We lived an hour away from eachother if you walk. Even though it was pouring rain, I walked outside in my cow slippers planning to walk those miles and finally tell him I loved him. But he was already there, standing across the street. I walked over, laughing, and said "You are so crazy" and he said "only for you." He got down on one knee, told me he always loved me, and asked me to be his girl. I'm not so sure why, but I said no. Maybe I was worried about our friendship. So I said no, and he walked away heart-broken. But six years later, he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him.

And i said yes."

-my mom<3

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