doesn't it kind of scare you? how the people you
know now, in a few years with be people you
knew.
even people on the internet. maybe one day they'll
just stop coming on. or stop breathing.
you'll never now because of the distance. it scares me
a lot actually. in 20 years we could all log back on this
website and think, 'hey, i remember them.' i
wonder where they are in life. and how they are doing.
and it'll make me sad.
or will we even remember these people? will they just be a
memory? or will we not even like eachother in a few
months?
i might not even meet some of the people i talk to on
here. i can't get too attached. because if i
never really know you in real life,
it will kill me inside. i don't know if i can keep
doing this.
and also, the people in school. the people you walk back
everyday in the halls will just be memories one day. and that
absolutely terrifies me.
disohajd ugh ok, i'm just thinking too much right now
bye
Old Days
Chapter 6
I walk out of my first period
classroom and see Kathy. She gives me a nasty look and
puts John's arm around her shoulder. I guess she's
trying to prove that she has the boyfriend and I don't.
Thanks Kathy.
I ignore her as much as I can and walk into second period. I see
Danny again and things are kind of awkward.
I take my seat next to Danny and we give each other a quick
glance and then we turn away.
Second period took forever to end. I just kept wanting to look at
Danny, but I didn't want to look crazy.
Honestly, I'm surprised he's acting so weird around me,
especially because I would have expected him to be used to
the kind of attention from girls even prettier than me.
The rest of the day went pretty quickly. A couple
dirty looks were exchanged between Kathy and me and the
whole episode between Danny and me, but that's pretty
much it.
I go home on the bus, sitting where I sat this morning, away from
Kathy.
When I get home, my mom is dressed in jeans, a T-shirt and a
cap. "Ready for baseball?" I ask her.
"Yes!" She says jumping up and down a couple of
times.
"It starts at 3:30, so we've got an hour to
kill," I say and her face drops.
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The hour was slow and painful. All I did was check Facebook
and play with my pencil. It wasn't very fun.
"Come on! Let's go!" My mom called from
downstairs at 3:15.
I quickly go down the stairs and run out the front
door. My mom follows and we head for the baseball field.
Once we get there, we see the baseball teams warming up. My
mom parks the car and dashes towards the bleachers. I just
walk behind.
"Olivia!" I hear my mom call out. A lady with
long, straight, blonde hair turns around. She looks young,
like mid-thirties, but I think she's the same age as my mom,
43. A big smile appears on her face and she opens up her arms. My
mom runs into Olivia's arms and they hug. They both have huge
smiles on their faces.
I finally make my way to the bleachers. Olivia looks at me
and gasps, "Oh my God! You've gotten so big and so
beautiful!"
I smile and say, "Thank you."
"Aw, it has been such a long time. I remember when you and
Danny played with each other. You guys used to love the sandbox
we had," I can tell she is so happy, "Danny is number
nine."
I see him. I have to admit, he looks really good in his
uniform, "That's my soccer number," is what I
say.
"Oh, cool," She says trying to act interested.
My mom starts asking Olivia for her number, e-mail, the whole
nine yards.
As she's doing that, the baseball game is about to start.
Danny is batting first and I get butterflies in my stomach.
The pitcher pitches the first ball and Danny hits it. "Go
Danny!" Olivia screams. My mom joins in and even I let out a
scream or two.
As Danny looks at the bleachers, I can see he catches my eyes and
I smile. I think I even saw him give a little smile, but then he
focuses back on the game.