I know that there are people suffering worse than me, who are

I know that there are people suffering worse than me, who are still being beaten, bullied and so many worse things.
Sure my time has been up and that part of my life is gone...
but the memories, they are haunting me, sure back then I wanted to forget everything but I just started to forget...
and in the worse way possible.
Not only am I forgetting those memories I am forgettin everything else too. But the thing is in order for me to get better and get help, I need to remember those memories but I can't and that alone is enough to drive me mad.