This
is our
s
o
c i e t
y;
One one hand, you have the girls who are
completely obnoxious and stuck-up. They
brag and are completely obsessed with themselves, they are
selfish and don't care about anyone but
themselves.
They constantly push people down and make others
feel horrible about themselves.
Then on the other hand, there are the girls who hate
everything about themselves because society completely tore them
down. They don't think
they're beautiful at all, and hate who they
see in the mirror. It's like there's no
middle ground. It's
always one extreme or the other.
Society doesn't allow
girls to be accepted for who they truly are.
Society provides a set of rules and guidelines for how we are
supposed to live our lives.
Society makes beauty completely
unattainable, so we're never happy.
Society doesn't allow people
to have their own thoughts and
feelings. We're supposed to
feel only what's socially acceptable.
Every time somebody tries to express their opinions,
especially on this website, they get attacked, and they get the "popular opinion"
shoved down their throat. It's completely
disrespectful to other people's
feelings, and it goes on all the time. News flash,
everybody is entitled to their own opinion. There is no
such thing as the "right opinion" because they are
OPINIONS.
This is our society.
It's ugly, and cruel, and
unfair. Maybe if we all just stopped judging each
other, we could all just get along and just
be
happy
f
or
once
FINALLY, IM SHARING MY SECRET
As promised, I'm sharing with all
you lovely Witty girls my very own secret. Like I said,
I've kept it from my friends for over a year. I want to
tell them, but I'm really scared. So I'm telling you
girls, anonymously, to get it off my chest, and most
importantly, to get help. Before I begin, let me say that I
love you for reading this.... okay... buckle
up...
Last year was the worst year of my life. And my friends knew
it was bad because I had absolutely no classes with any of
them, not even lunch, and I never saw them throughout the
day. But that's not even the half of it. I've always
been sort of shy, so being completely alone all day shattered
my confidence. I somehow immediately built up a wall that
kept everyone else out, and all my thoughts in. And those
thoughts became dangerous. At lunch, I sat with a girl who I
had become friendly with and all of her friends. Every single
day they would just ignore me and talk with themselves. I
tried to talk to them, but they just pretended I wasn't
there. It was that small thing that started it all- I began
to hate myself. I was so confused.. why was everyone so happy
and I had to be so sad... I wondered why everybody all of the
sudden turned their backs on me. I figured it was a problem
with me- I started seeing a fat girl in the mirror. I was
very skinny- I always have been. But I didn't see it. I
gradually stopped eating. For a number of reasons- 1. I
thought I was fat. 2. Most of the time I was too upset to
eat. 3. I wanted to see if anybody would notice. Notice
something was wrong with me. Notice that I never ate at
lunch. Nobody ever did. I went on Facebook and all I saw was
pictures of my old best friends with tons of pictures of
their countless new friends. I used to be an honor student,
but my grades completely dropped. Instead of noticing that I
was sinking into depression, all my mom would do was yell at
me because of my grades. I started cutting. I felt even more
ashamed of myself... I didn't know who I was becoming.
Everything was spiraling out of control and I felt so lost. I
started to enjoy the feeling of hunger- it was the only thing
that satisfied me. The hunger made me feel in control, the
one thing I needed. I was always too much of a wimp to kill
myself. But I felt like if, for any reason, I happened
to die, I wouldn't care. A few weeks ago was the one-year
"anniversary" of my "breaking point."
That was the point when I could barely keep myself from
fainting during dance class, when I woke up dreading school,
when I only weighed 65 pounds. That's right, 65 pounds.
But I still thought I was fat. One day, before school, I
burst into tears and couldn't stop. Instead of sending me
off too school, my mom sent me off to a therapist. I had kept
everything inside for so long, that my entire story came
pouring out to the therapist. And then, she told me what was
wrong with me, that one deadly word,
"Anorexia."
After that I recovered, slowly. I reconnected with my friends
over the summer. I lost many of them, but I still have a few.
They saved my life. And I want them to know that. I want them
to know what happened to me. But I'm so scared.
Last night, I was at my friend's house. She told me she
found out her boyfriend cuts himself, and she's so scared
for him. I wanted to tell her right then, tell her
everything. But I choked. I couldn't do it. I want
her to know so badly, but it will completely change how
she sees me. I don't know what to do.
If you read all of that, I LOVE YOU.
SO MUCH.
♥♥♥♥