desultori*

When I'm older, I want to live in the country. Where there's no one but me and my family. I'll have my husband and my two kids. One girl, with his blue and green eyes and one boy, who had my brown eyes. It'd seem like they'd never grow up and they'd be stuck in time with the sun shining down on their unruly hair, and their eyes shining bright with mischeif as they run through the endless fields of long green grass. I'd walk hand in hand with my husband, my free hand gently brushing the tops of the grass. Our small yellow house in the distance behind us. There'd be no buzz of traffic or the sound of my neighbours kids playing next door. It'd be just us. We'd be alone but we wouldn't feel lonely. It would seem like we had the whole world to ourselves and there was nothing to interrupt us and every moment would last forever. 
 

You spent so long
wondering
and asking
"How can anyone love me?"
and you counted your flaws
but didn't have
any fingers left
for strengths

and when someone finally
said they loved you
all you could ask
was "Why?"

instead of telling them
that you loved them, too

(AKR)



 

my parents,
my teachers,
and all the people say

the most important thing is
inner beauty,
not your appearance.

but the saddest thing is
nobody will love you
if you are so kind, but not beautiful.

g.h.l



 

When I die I'll go to heaven because I've spent my time in he.ll.