theonewhodreamstomuch

Status: Hey(: I'm here if you need me(: I follow back n_n
Joined: June 18, 2012
Last Seen: 1 decade
user id: 309826
Gender: F
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It's hard to swin
in a world so shallow
Hello Beautiful(: My name is Amanda.(: Follow??? This isn’t my first witty. I have a few others. But i created this one for a different purpose. This one is focused on helping you (: You might think no one cares about you and you might feel alone in this big world.. But the truth is your wrong darling. People do care. I do and so do a lot of the people on this site. Oh and you’re not alone. Many other people have gone through the same thing or similar things. I would love to help you out babe. I’m here for you at all times. My favorite thing to do is to help people that need help and I will do everything I can to help. I’ve been through some stuff like Family problems, friendship problems, relationship problems, and self problems. I just might be able to understand what you are going through so please let me help beautiful. I have cut many times before and I have tried to commit suicide multiple times. But for some reason I’m still here. Some things about me...Well I love to play sports and hangout with my friends. I love music to death. I listen to every kind of it and i listen to it all the time. I love One Direction if you can’t tell. Liam is mine<333(: I also love Eminem, B.o.B, Black-eyed peas, Maroon 5 and many others but I don’t want to bore you. ;) I love to swim. When I’m in or by water I just feel calm and relaxed. Don’t know why just am. I love tubing. I play a couple of instruments. I hate being inside. Outside is where it’s at(; Without my best friends(and two other people) and music, I don’t know where I would be right now but I know I wouldn’t be here. Well that’s a little about me. But i want to know you (: Talk to me if you need to vent or just need a friend. I’m always here for you beautiful. If I seem to not be on witty a lot then ask me for my email or phone number and I will gladly give it to you(: I care and I’m always here for you (: Stay Strong sweetheart
Hello Beautiful(:

Quotes by theonewhodreamstomuch




I wish i would have kept everything

TO Myself.
 






I really screwed up.




 





The word "love "
gets thrown around to much.



 
PLEASE READ THIS 
Please.
Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried… your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up. I’m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we’ve NEVER talked before, I’m here for you. ♥ Copy and paste this as your status to show people there are people out there that care.


 
 
 
What's this Trust
                                Youspeakof?

 

In room on laptop

Dad: Dinners ready!!!!
M: Ok be out in a sec!!
10 minutes go by..
Dad:

Me: 
Dad:
Me:
Dad:
Me:
Dad: GET OUT HERE!!!!!!
Me: .__.
 
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As the smoke clears
  I awaken and untangle you from me 
 Would it make you feel better to watch me bleed?
All my windows still are broken
  But I'm standing on my feet


 


Look, if you had one shot, 
One opportunity,
to seize everything you ever wanted
In one moment
Would you capture it
Or just let it slip?