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Well my name is Katie, im 15 and i love life right now! Soccer is my sport dont hate. I have an amazing boyfriend that i am happy to be with! (: Well i try to think of quotes that are cute and just goes with my life right now. If you follow me i will follow you(: Well that is all. Comment on my profile(:
I really dont care if anyone reads
this or not i just need to vent. You can give me advice if you
like.
Okay so i been losing a lot of friends lately. I just lost one of
my friends recently (Brandon). Because of my ex. Brandon and my
ex was already friends before we started talking. It wasnt my
fault that Brandon texted me first right? No. The only reason why
brandon started to talk to me in the first place was because he
liked me. Yeah i knew because my friends told me. But my ex told
me that everything was awkward between them. Well its only
awkward if you make it awkward. So i guess you just made it that
way. Me and Brandon was starting to be really close friends. I
considered him one of my best friends since i mostly told him
everything. But me and him stopped texting each other since so
much drama was going on between the 3 of us. Plus my ex told me
to stop texting him so things wouldnt be awkward. Well my so
called "ex" still talks to one of my friends. So why
cant i talk to Brandon? I swear you are just so stupid and
confusing. Like one day you get so mad at me for not talking to
you about how i wanted to get back together and then the next day
you are just like "oh i dont think there is going to be a
second chance" LITERALLY what is wrong with you? Playing
with my feelings? Just....i loved you and you just dont care. its
what ever i guess.
Im done trying. I am literally done trying. Cause everytime when i do...nothing seems to go right. I lose something everytime. I tried to be with a guy that i thought i could be with for a really long time and now he is gone. I tried to keep a friend or get them back but they are gone and probably never coming back. I try to make things right but they turn out wrong. So why try? I give up. Im not as happy as i use to be because im losing everything that i love mostly. I lost a guy, i lost a bestfriend... what more. I just want more than 2 people to care about me for once. So now instead of trying...im going to just let things go as they are and if i dont like it...then i will deal with it. Like i have been for who knows how long now.
Ok i just want to vent right
now. You can read if you want maybe can give me some advice or
something? Or you can just skip it like everyone else
does...
Okay...so me and
my boyfriend broke up...almost 4 weeks ago. Im still not over him
yet... Of course the person that gets dumped never gets over
the other person for a long while. Well I feel like one of
my friends is going to end up with him because they been talking
a lot lately. I know i shouldnt worry about this but i just
do. I kind of seen it coming though because i knew
she liked him before i did and i got him...The thing that got me
thinking was he said the only reason he wanted to break up was
because he wanted to get through baseball season. Well if you
wanted to get through baseball season why talk to other girls
alot? If you wanted to get through baseball you would only worry
about baseball and nothing else.
I think he just
lied to me and it hurts a lot. I think everything he told me and
everything we talked about was a lie. I knew him liking me back
was too good to be true. I mean come on there is a slim chance
for the guy you like to like you back...well for me it is. I
guess it just hurts and im overthinking and im jealous because i
still care about him a lot and i still love him. I just have to
move on right? Thats what everyone else says....i guess right now
its my only option...
Okay im tired of people feeling sorry
for me.
Ok me and my boyfriend broke up. It happens. Do i want this to
happen? No. Am i going to let it get to me? Well it kind of
already did... But do i want to hear you all say "omg im so
sorry" or "aww you guys were so cute what
hapened?" No i dont. It just makes me even more upset trying
to tell you all what happened. Yes i love him more than anything
thats why im not trying to get him back. He wants to focus on the
sport he loves to play right now. I respect his decision. He said
after the season he will see how he feels then. Do i want to get
back together with him? Of course i do but it is what it is now.
Im going to have to deal with it. Hopefully we are just friends.
I dont want to lose someone that meant the whole world to
me...
I
just realized that im a horrible girlfriend.
He deserves someone better than me. All i do now is make him
upset. A girlfriend shouldnt do that to their boyfriend. I feel
like i dont make him happy any more i just make him upset
because of the stupid decisions i make. The thing that made
him upset was that i was talking to guys he didnt know. I
was only talking to 2 guys really. I barely have any guy
friends. I understand why he felt that way because at one point
i did. he stopped talking to her too. So for him i will stop
talking to the other guys. But the thing that made me
upset was when he said...
"your not stupid. if you wanna message him you can, i just
dont wanna be in a relationship with a girl who will talk to
other guys.."
It made me feel like he didnt want to be in a relationship with
me. This boy has no idea how much i care about him and how much
i love him. I wouldnt want to lose him. So if it meant not
talking to any guys then so be it, i wont. For once i actually
think he could be the one i want to be with for the rest of my
life. I could be wrong but right now it doesnt matter. All that
matters was i love him and want to be with him for as long as i
can. I would do anything for this boy...he just doesnt know it
yet. Sorry i had to vent im just really upset right now. Some
advice wouldnt hurt or just some couragement for me to stop
thinking my boyfriend doesnt want to be with me any more.
Thanks for reading.