emily... emily is just an empty, ghost of a girl. she listens to music just about every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every week of every year. she used to have friends, they decided to leave her in the dust; but she's not complaining. life, it is what it is regardless if she's happy or not. she just tries to live, day by day. it's hard. it's an uphill battle all the time. she's used to the jokes, the rumors, and the lies. she lives her life just waiting and waiting to get out of this sick town she lives in. she wants to go to school far far away, boston maybe. she has no boyfriend, no friends, and not much hope left. again, no complaints. it is what it is. tears are normal, sad music is what you'll hear if you ever listen to her iPod (which is basically her best friend), and sleepless nights are way too familiar. get to know her, maybe just maybe she'll open up.
I Never Knew, But It Has Always
Been You
Chapter Two (part four)
Back at the classroom Fletcher was left
astonished. He shouldn’t have kissed her. He sat there with
his head in his hands hunched over; his thinking pose. “Why
did you do that Fletcher? God! You’re so stupid!”
Fletcher said to himself as he punched his backpack on his desk.
When he punches it, something comes flying out; Ella’s
song. He smiles and then regains his sanity. He sits up straight
and notices Ella standing in the doorway.
“Do you always talk to yourself?” Ella asked as if
nothing had just happened between them. She let a cheeky smile
creep across her face. She uncrossed her arms and stopped leaning
on the door frame, then pranced over to her desk beside
Fletcher.
He is obviously wearing
a very confused face. “I thought you were mad at me?”
Fletcher asked Ella. He sat up a little straighter and ran his
ran through his beautiful long, dark, chocolate, brown
hair.
Ella shook
her head as a ‘no’. “No. Fletcher I’m not
mad at you. It just got weird you know? I actually think a lot
about this, a lot about you, me, the potential us. But every
single time, I just worry about our friendship and how much a
relationship like that would take a toll on our great friendship.
What do you think?” Ella explained herself as gently as
possible. She secretly hoped Fletcher would disagree with her.
However, she knew that that chance was slim.
“Ella, I totally understand where you’re coming from.
I shouldn’t have kissed you; I just got caught up in the
moment. I have thought a lot about that too.” He paused.
Probably more so than you but whatever, Fletcher said to himself.
“But I know where you’re coming from and I
wouldn’t want to risk our friendship either. You’re
right. And, it will never happen again.” Fletcher said in
the happiest tone he could manage, even though he is being torn
apart inside.
Ella
smiled sympathetically and pulled Fletcher in for a hug. He
wrapped his big, broad arms around her and squeezed tight.
“Fletch… I… C- Can’t
breathe!” Ella
Fletcher
chuckled and let her go. “Better?” He asked still
laughing. Ella nodded. “So, can you sing me what you have
so far of your song?” Fletcher begged.
Ella
smiled. “Hm, no sorry.” Ella said trying to be as
serious as possible.
Fletcher put on his best puppy-dog face and got down on the floor
and begged. “Please! Pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty,
pretty, pretty please!” Fletcher whined.
Ella let
out a giggle. “Alright fine, but get up this floor is
filthy.” Ella joked.
Ella
hasn’t sung to anyone before, but once Fletcher caught her
in her room. She was playing piano and playing Forever and Always
by Taylor Swift and singing along. That was right after Ricky
told her he had a girlfriend back home. “Okay, it’s
probably not that great but here goes nothing.” Ella warns
Fletcher. Ella begins her song. “As we lay here under the
stars/ We both are looking but never seeing/ That we are many
worlds apart/ Neither of us really believing. / Trying to make
something of the separation / Always turning in the wrong
directions/ And somehow, in some way, the desperation, / The
desperation keeps us running.” Ella pauses and picks up the
piece of sheet music that has the rest of the lyrics written on
it. “As we run, run, run in circles / We discover a new
beginning in ourselves / And as we dream, dream, dream of
miracles / We hope to find, one more time, the love we have been
longing for. / As we stare at the twinkle in the sky / We both
think is this really possible? / To love someone after only
looking them in the eye? / Maybe it’s you tonight.”
Ella finishes and glances up at Fletcher and smiles.
“See, I told you it wasn’t that great but-“,
Ella stops talking immediately when she notices Fletcher staring
at her in awe.
Something wet falls on Fletcher’s cheek. “What the
heck?” Fletcher says in confusion. He looks up at the
ceiling.
Ella starts laughing uncontrollably. “Fletcher,
you’re crying.” She stops laughing and wipes away the
tear from his soft cheek. “Why?” She laughs
again.
“Damn, I thought that would work.” Fletcher hides his
face beneath his hair and flushes a deep crimson color. He
sniffles a little too. “Ella, that song was amazing.”
Fletcher said as he lifted his head and cracked a
smile.
“I’m glad
you liked it.” Ella paused for a quick second examining
Fletcher’s expression. “Why are you crying?”
Ella asked.
“I’m not
crying!” Fletcher said in a little five-year old
girl’s voice. He paused for a second to think. Why was he
really crying? Maybe he thinks the song is about him and Ella.
Could it be? She said she didn’t really know what
it’s about, but he knows Ella. Ella is an exceptional liar.
“Well, it was just so powerful you know? It just hit me;
real hard.” Fletcher said concluding his
thoughts.
This made Fletcher think more and more about Ella. As the day
passed by, he processed this and wanted to know more. He needed
more information. He also knows the perfect time to get more
information on what Ella feels; tonight at the movie and her
house. That’s when he will begin his plan. He knows Ella
couldn’t have possibly kissed him back smiling if she
didn’t feel the same way. This just didn’t make
sense; it’s just a big old mess of
feelings.