Hello. My name is Meggan. Im 15 years old. I blow the candles out on may 19th. I am a sophmore. Im an artist writer and i make jewlery. I cant go a day without music. . I live in New Jersey. um yeah.....Taurus Greaser Directioner Art Poetry writing Socially Awkward Penguin Photos Tribute Music Lover Reading Fangirling at its best. Lovatic Dreaming and stuff. Staying strong no matter what. You can do it too. Just once i want my life to be like a 80's movie. I dont know how to write an about me. Ponyboy Curtis is mine. I hate high school. I run a blog b3hind-these-hazel-eyesxx.tumblr.com i have a wattpad. just2seeusmilex .
im really sorry that sucked a lot
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yeah...thurs is when i found out abt that..i was just sad idk y really tho...i was talking to wiley abt it and my reasoning and all...how bad i wanted him to say "dont beat yourself up abt it" and he did...but you're prob sick of my lovey dovy :P..im sorry...
Omg!!! I miss my funkypctopus, megster,!!!!! Your status makes me so sad :/...i wish things would be better....i cry a lot now...kinda good i guess....i, happier tho..dont cut much..friends took blades...i made a new one...my 7th month anaversery was last sunday..God do i hate chicks who are all like OMG its my bf and my anaversery and im like for how long 2nd month and im like that aint something to celebrate!..wait for your year one...and half yr..way more meaningful well..i didnt rally want wiley to do anything but since he reminded me this time last last week i was hoping he would say something that Sunday...well, he didnt..idk y cared we went thru 7 other ones..but whatev right?..im on spring break till next thurs...was off yesterday till next thurs i mean...how r u megster?..i worry and miss u!!! Wiley's sister finally hates me YAAAYYY -_-
OMG. I miss you too clairebear!!!!!!! I sent you two emails. dont be sad. about my status claire. I like high school but then i hate it claire. High school is a little good but then i hate it. I cry alot too claire. its good that your crying. i think thats good but why are you crying? that IS SO GREAT CLAIRE. good. that you dont cut much. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW congrats claire :D. i know me too. its annoying. i agree with you. aww :(. omg claire what your on spring break until next thrus im spring break and i go back to school monday -_- ugh my teachers gave me so much spring break work omg.but yeah ive been good claire cried a little been sad ya know regular. i havent hurt myself or anything. i did a bullying skit in health. i was the victim (it wasnt that bad it was funny tho but really realistic we got a free day in gym) I worry about you too claire and i miss you too!!! Wait why does she hate you???
idk y im crying...just am i guess...and yeah.i got ya emails..i replied..U NEED A SKYPE :((...and y u said megster?? :(...but good abt not hurting your self!! vry good!!!... OMG!! I love skits! use to do them in my youth group...which i dont go to anymore :PP...they werent that good of friends..idk... was it a good?? was it fun!?? thats all tha tcounts that is if it was fun!!...
idk...she just hates me..her name is vic...cuz she has a grudge against me..i was just teasing with her like i do with everyone..but wiley told me she takes things more seriously..and said i was "bullying her".... i guess i was...all i did was like mess with her by like joking take some of her food...or like sneak her book from her... but liek if she told me how she felt i wont have... like my defo of bullying is someone who doesnt stop when u ask them too..i would have... she didnt ask me to!!>... so she wants me to apoligize...sigh..i will wiley, my sister, and my friend think i shouldnt cuz i did nothing wrong than what i do to them but everyone..cuz she doesnt forgive even if she wants u too...but im not just gonna say im sorry cuz honestly i did hardly nothing wrong...i just teased too much..but in my defense.. she didnt tell me the line..i didnt know i was crossing the line cuz she didnt tell me!!...so im gonna tell her my behalf as well..i will say im sorry...but right after i will tell her her fault too.. cuz yeah..i was out of line..but she didnt make it clear to me..wiley said she will not like it and will just hold that grudge forever and how she has to be better than everyone...and im like well if thats how she will take it then so be it!! cuz i will do all i can..but i cant make her mind abt it... i will say sorry but tell her how i didnt know and how its wrong to be mad at the neive!!!... but yeah... she takes that as she wants...cuz i believe that in every problem/situation everyone has a fault..she even didnt even tell me she was ignoring me..she told MY SISTER..she was...I HATE middle men..d.mn tell me your self...as i said on my fb status "if you got a problem with me - then tell me yourself. dont get a middle person to tell for you. dont give them the pleausure of bad mouthing me! cuz they will probably won't even say it like how you wanted it to be said with the coldness of how it was spoken."
rachel D (my friend) kept saying how im too nice cuz she wont even apolizige cuz i did nothing wrong... but i did...just she did too... soyeah sorry abt that :PP
omg you wrote alot. oh. maybe its because you havent cried. i know imma reply to them now. i dont know. yep. i have no need. OMG YAY!! it was okay. i felt fine. nothing bad happened. wow. i dont think you were idk. i know claire. i understand. your not to blame. lol its okay im too nice too. i feel bad alot
well..i told her i cut... she looked away..closed her eyes and breathed... she said i have to process this... and i leaned against the bathroom wall...and watch her leave and she started to wlak away..and then she turned around and said "c, this is why i dont tell u things"...and then made it to the door...touched the handle...stopped jerked to turn..but then walked out..i stooded leaning against the cold brick wall...crying...
lol, yeah u didnt..but that was awhile ago now... :P..i couldnt go to the damn dance bc of it! :P..while got me purple flowers today and choc! ^_^...it was soo damn awk!!
lol!! XD!! it was!! but so damn awko!! O.o...that moment when u talk too much of depressing things..but its not my fault cuz u know..we dont have a topic...so i start to ramble and talk abt whats on my mind..and thats just depressing...i think i wear him out... :/..he says its fine...but its not..its not fine!!>.he tells me to explode to get my emotions out over txt on him..but its not fine!
OMG!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE THE PROFILE!!!!!!!!...lol! Paramore!!! That's my friend's (Meowkittyxx) Rachel K (from my school and only sophomore friend...rest r juniors) she is in LOVE iwth paramore! XD.... Dude I got your emails... Js...and hang in there stay strong...Kelsey's best guy friend in the world who she was so gonna marry one day and they were perfect..well he (Brody) he killed himself Monday... :/... So stay strong meg!...I just...never thought I would know someone kinda in person who have commited suicide :/
OMG THANK YOU!!!!! I LOVE PARA MORE TOO!!! . i know. im replying to them too. but thanks. awww omg why did he do that. im gonna go cry. that just made me really sad. im sorry claire and to kelsey too hang in there!
yeah...kelsey is a vry depress girl :/..and she would say how brody brought hope to her...she says now i do..shes a junior but born in sept 1996... so just month older...we joke around being bffs... and like forever and like how her mom thought we were lez :P..ha... kinda act like it i guess..not really...but yeah... so i lose han...and gain a new... hannah is noticing... she is kinda confused..but she says shes use to it...haha shes so not!!
oh i didnt see the comment ok then haha...me and wiley...things are good...i wnat to kiss him but u know... i have no privacy....he hasnt taken me on a date at all!!!!...just dances and u know what...its killing me!!!.... its been like4 months and still the only places we been to r the dances...idc for the dances honestly they make me depress but he likes them and its what couples do and its the only time i c him and it gets me out of the house!!.. anwyays...after hearing myself think i think im going to tell him NOW that we need to go out!!...he is having a xmas party right now..but we r still textin right now too haha
LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL!!!!!! XD!!!!!!...yeahhh.... me too i remember that too hahahaha....i dont say it strong... like right now i do but in person idk...ok i txt him im like dude, we need to go somewhere....and he said i no im working on it but my parents dont want to think abt it cuz they r busy...and im like thats redic its been 4 months and we been no where...and he said i know i know...and then im like well...theres no reason i cant try either....and he said ok...now how am i suppose to make a convo out of that -__-
lol yeah..its cool..we r even more awk!! :P..we hardly talk and look kinda awk when we r by eachother! :P... its my fault kinda..anyways funny u reply now..haha..i was JUST NOW..txting him saying how i want to go window shop at the mall with him just me and him...and he was like alright..and told me the date that worked..and said how the theatre is real close as well..so yeah!!..just have to ask the parents... but yeah...mall then walking to a theatre..me like this idea!! XD
Lol!..I'm not..not really ha...dude! I was sitting at the computer and my mom comes by and she asked me if he kissed me! XD...no he didn't but she was like all cool abt it! XD
okay well you click your pic next to search then these links come go and then you will find edit profile and go to the bottom when you click and use old editor.
yes omg dont worry i didnt do it deep enough its just little scratches but i still did it. okay well i hit a depressive state and it kinda had to do with me talking crap about myself and putting myself down and it happpend i went to a dark place.. i felt stupid and it hurt. and i was like why did i do that whyyyyyy!!! im okay. dont be it wasnt that bad tho. i was really down and yeah......... stupid me but i dont have any urges tho it just happened. no one knows. im okay claire i am you can hardly see them. that dark place that makes you do things are horrible but im okay
Yeah I get that...depression gets us all... Yeah glad they aren't hard but cutting is cutting no matter how hard...I havent cut over two months! And u know y...cuz I thought to myself...no one NO ONE has the right or deserves my pain or Greif...cuz if they do they have to be dman special....and NOT those b..itches nor Hannah deserve my pain...Hannah isn't that special she doesn't have my trust anymore... I'm e only one worry of is if I don't like then don't feel like!... And I've been pretty happy now too...like yeah I've been having A LOT!!! Of depression mood swings..but they don't last as long... Magan u r the only one who can convince yourself that u r ugly or beautful be the one or other for YOURSELF!!.... No one gets the right to tear u down...no one!... Live life to the fullest woot pll getting in the f.ckin way... I know by now u will say I'm good now...and I'm sorry I've been was late on every reply but just plz do remeber depression and puts downs only hurt and can only occur...if u let it!
omg thank you! lol. i know but i wanted you to wish you an early merry christmas because im having ppl over and i dont know if ill be able to get on so i wanted you to wish you early and lol ITS SNOWING RIGHT NOW AND IM SO HAPPY AND IT HASNT SNOWED AT CHRISTMAS IN AWHILE OMG IM SO HAPPY. :D and okay..
YAY!!!! ^_^!!!!...I had one of the two Xmas parties yestarday....I GOT MAKE UP!!! ^_^!!!..and a hair cut!!! Will update my profile pic for sure!!!... SNOWWW!!!!!!!...glad it isn't here...I HATE THE COLD!!! It's like cold here the worst was like 20...it could be a lot worst! :P
Yay :). aww OMG YAY YOU GOT MAKEUP :D. aww i got my bangs cut -_- ! okay i wanna see. IT SNOWED THEN IT RAINED so no white christmas :( i wanted one so badly NJ havent had one is a while. good i hate the cold too but I LOVE SNOW. oh wow thats cold
Yay :). aww OMG YAY YOU GOT MAKEUP :D. aww i got my bangs cut -_- ! okay i wanna see. IT SNOWED THEN IT RAINED so no white christmas :( i wanted one so badly NJ havent had one is a while. good i hate the cold too but I LOVE SNOW. oh wow thats cold
Yeah I liike snow..hate the cold!! :P... Lol ok ok Ill show ya my hair cut soon maybe ha... I'm glad it didn't snow! XP... Yay?? Bangs cut boo?? Bad thing? Good thing?...kinda confused haha
sorry i feel HORRIBLE!!!!! that i havent replied yet!! :PP -____- BAD CLAIRE!!!! im sooo lazy!!!!!!!! BAD CLAIRE!!!!!!
so whats new with u?
i have a lot of hannah probs...but its sooo long that it would take sooo much time to explain.... here is an inlook.... just a starter....its in the middle of the probs but ill just copy it from what i txt emily
you know what ill just email it to you...easier if i just take a pic of it..cuz it wont copy f.ckin txt app! :P
bleh..nvm abt taht down therevvv my last comment that is
ok, so i can see that u know nothing abt hannah and my frusturation...but ITS SOOO LOOONNNGGG...and i really dont feel like typing it!...dude you have a facetime????
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Sorry about the spam, its just i need this so much!
idk...she just hates me..her name is vic...cuz she has a grudge against me..i was just teasing with her like i do with everyone..but wiley told me she takes things more seriously..and said i was "bullying her".... i guess i was...all i did was like mess with her by like joking take some of her food...or like sneak her book from her... but liek if she told me how she felt i wont have... like my defo of bullying is someone who doesnt stop when u ask them too..i would have... she didnt ask me to!!>... so she wants me to apoligize...sigh..i will wiley, my sister, and my friend think i shouldnt cuz i did nothing wrong than what i do to them but everyone..cuz she doesnt forgive even if she wants u too...but im not just gonna say im sorry cuz honestly i did hardly nothing wrong...i just teased too much..but in my defense.. she didnt tell me the line..i didnt know i was crossing the line cuz she didnt tell me!!...so im gonna tell her my behalf as well..i will say im sorry...but right after i will tell her her fault too.. cuz yeah..i was out of line..but she didnt make it clear to me..wiley said she will not like it and will just hold that grudge forever and how she has to be better than everyone...and im like well if thats how she will take it then so be it!! cuz i will do all i can..but i cant make her mind abt it... i will say sorry but tell her how i didnt know and how its wrong to be mad at the neive!!!... but yeah... she takes that as she wants...cuz i believe that in every problem/situation everyone has a fault..she even didnt even tell me she was ignoring me..she told MY SISTER..she was...I HATE middle men..d.mn tell me your self...as i said on my fb status "if you got a problem with me - then tell me yourself. dont get a middle person to tell for you. dont give them the pleausure of bad mouthing me! cuz they will probably won't even say it like how you wanted it to be said with the coldness of how it was spoken."
rachel D (my friend) kept saying how im too nice cuz she wont even apolizige cuz i did nothing wrong... but i did...just she did too... soyeah sorry abt that :PP
(ps love your profile....)
hey megster this is really good!!!
so whats new with u?
i have a lot of hannah probs...but its sooo long that it would take sooo much time to explain.... here is an inlook.... just a starter....its in the middle of the probs but ill just copy it from what i txt emily
you know what ill just email it to you...easier if i just take a pic of it..cuz it wont copy f.ckin txt app! :P
it would be easier in person...and i love to her your voice haha not trying to sound creepy!
ok, so i can see that u know nothing abt hannah and my frusturation...but ITS SOOO LOOONNNGGG...and i really dont feel like typing it!...dude you have a facetime????