dancelovelive

Hey guys, I need your help! One of my best friends lost her best friend last year in a car accident. It's been a little over a year, but she's still really upset about it. She is going to go see a therapist soon, but she still constantly calls me to talk about it. I don't mind, I just don't know how to help her. What would you guys say to help her feel better and get her mind off of it? Thanks so much(:

I'm sick of nothing going right.

i am so sick of my family. im never good enough, never worth their time. im so sick of all their bullcrap. i just want to leave.

I mean, i guess its cool if my mom calls me fat for eating a normal amount if dinner. its not like im already insecure or anything.

"Matty Babe,"
I love you. Remember the first day we met? In gym class. Stephanie and Alli said "Hi," so I did too. My first reaction was "wow, hes cute!" And then we started talking 24/7. We had the best conversations. Remember when I made you watch Mean Girls 2 with me? And that super long conversation about bras, panties, and boxers? And how we used to talk in different launguages? And when we made a promise to go to Paris together, and watch the sunset. <3 I honestly can't get you off my mind. I mean, I'm sitting here in English, not even hearing whats going on, because I can't. I need you Matt. A lot. More than you realize. I woke up this morning without a text from you. I was so upset. Then I failed a math test. I was in tears. I just couldnt handle it. I wanted to text you, because I knew you could make me feel better. But I couldn't. Because I know you wouldnt have responded. I want to tell you all this, but how? You won't respond. But I love you. A lot. I have since the day in gym. You might be a total and complete player, and totally hazardous to my health (mostly mental). I don't understand why you are having all these girls write on your wall, it doesn't make me jealous. It makes me think you miss me, and all these girls are just your rebound. Why don't you just text me? I was stupid to listen to Rachael and start this. I fell asleep crying last night, because I just miss you so much. It takes everything I have not to just burst into tears every two seconds. I miss our long conversations that kept me up until 3 am. I miss seeing you everyday. I just miss you.<3 You were my first kiss. I had been hoping forever you would be, and you were. Do you know how special that is? Really special.      Do you remember in gym class, when I would kick your feet because they were always in my way? I pretended to be annoyed, but I really didn't want you to stop. I just wanted to sit down in your lap, with your arms around me, cuddling. I want you to come back next year, just so I can see you. Seeing you Friday made my entire year. I want to see you again, so badly. I love you. You're my best friend. The perfect guy to marry. But, you're "just a player." "A bad idea." Well, why can't you be a good idea? I know its in you. But no matter what Boo, I will always love you. Forever and Always. <3

~ Your "Baby Girl" <3


*I wrote this like 2 weeks ago, but I really needed to get it off my chest. Its just a vent.*

:) its my birthday (:

New Years Resolution:
Get. Over. Him.