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Those demons in my head Remind me that I should have been dead They never leave my mind The family I had to leave behind
Parents literally torn apart Oh, how it breaks my heart Then my sister met her demise I never asked for a reprise
I wanted to help but they died I’m sorry, family, but I tried Of my insanity, he’s the boss The one and only Lord loss

"If two people like each other they should just go out."
-Boy was I naive when I said that freshmen year. I'm now going into senior year and those words couldn't be any dumber.
"It's complicated."
-Those words have been part of my vocabulary for quite a long time now.
"I don't know."
-The only way I can express how I feel about most situations nowadays.
 

I can't even get mad at you, because I knew what I was getting into. 
I knew you weren't the lovey dovey type. 
I knew you weren't going to try anything.
I knew you weren't that into me. 

Word of advice?
When falling for your best friend, make sure they fall alongside you.
I can't even get mad at you, because I knew what I was getting into.
And that's probablly what hurts the most...

I want to text him                        

     from a distance and see if he smiles.

Its funny how hello always ends with a goodbye,
It's funny how good memories can start to make you cry.
It's funny how forever never really seems to last,
It's funny how much you'd lose if you forgot your past.
It's funny how friends can just leave you when you're down,
It's funny how when you need someone they're never around.
It's funny how people change and think they're so much better,
It's funny how many lies can be packed in a "love letter".
It's funny how people forgive even though they can't forget,
It's funny how one night can contain so much regret.
It's funny how ironic life turns out to be
but the funniest part of all, none of that's funny to me.
Remember the past, plan the future, but live for today, because yesterday is gone.
and tomorrow may never come.
What seems like the right thing to do could also be the hardest thing you have ever done in your life.
I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that don't change; when everybody else does.
Never regret something that made you smile.

I always think of perfect things to say,
right after the moments over.

From start to finish I wonder why
The cuts look good in this messed up lie
The blood that trickles down my arm
People all stare at the girl who self-harms:-

"The emo" they call me
I turn to my name
They act out slicing their wrists
I hang my head in shame
I can't help my feelings
Of being alone
I hide myself for the day
Just longing to go home
I sprawl on my bed
With my razor in hand
And take myself away
To a much better land
I stare in the mirror
And let myself cry
Looking forward to the day
That I finally die