RoseLovesWitty

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I am not afraid to keep on living.

Hi  Just call me Rose or Rosey. I'm 12 ,13 on June12th. I'm single and inlove with my exboyfriend Aiden,but you know he doesn't care anymore.. I have no friends really because friends=drama and /i hate drama.My dad passed away in 2003 then my family hopped around from house to house .my mother had gotten into drugs and couldn't aford to keep a home so we moved in with my grandparents.My cousins lived there also and always tried to 'touch' my sisters&I so we moved again,and again then eventualy we moved into my home town. Around September 2011 I found out my grandfather had a few years to live and over the years his body was going to slowly shut down. Also around that time I had met this guy named Austin who was really funny&sweet and cute and I had a really big crush on him and always wrote my feelings down in letters. On November 15th,2011 around 2am I woke up to my mother screaming "wake up we need to get out the house is on fire!" I blinked a few times and noticed the end of my bed in flames. I screamed and rushed down the already burning stairs. My mom ,her boyfriend,my brother&my sister all made it out safe and alive,but our house on the other hand burned flat to the ground.Nothing was left. I was in shock for like a month. I moved in with my friend and started writing letters again.One had been about austin and when me and my friend got into a fight I moved out,but forgot the letter and she gave it to him. I was soooo embarassed,but I talked to him on the phone and he said he had feelings for me to .We talked alot and a few days later we started dating.It felt like a dream.I wouldn't kiss him though because I wanted my first kiss to be super special. 10 days later he dumped me.I was really sad,but I kinda got over it.I still think about it alot and I really do still like him.I started living with my sister but her drug addict boyfriend kicked my family out so we went and stayed with my moms friend.(around march)That's when I started talking to austin's step brother Aiden. We would sit and talk for hours and hours.I really started to have feelings for him. Everyone would ask me what we were.If we were friends,dating ,but I didn't know so I asked him and he said he had been wondering to.So on March 17th 2012 arounnd 11pm he asked me to be his girlfriend.I said yes and couldn't stop smiling. The first time we hungout I had been so nervous.He was fucking adorable . We started talking later on in the day and he said 'iloveyou' i said 'iloveyouto' then we fought about who loved who more for like 10 minutes then he said' wanna fight about it?' and i responded with'bring it' and he kissed me. My heart was racing so fast. austin had walked in on us and it was so awkward.Later on that day Aiden had told me Austin still liked me and it killed me inside.Me and Aiden dated for a month and a week and it was the best month&one week of my life.One day my friend and I went to aiden's school and waited for him to get out so we could hangout with him &one of his friends. It had been really fun,but tords the end of the day things got weird.He stopped smiling and kissing me .I noticed it was getting dark and he seemed like he didn't wanna hangout anymore so I told him my friend&I had to go. he said "Bye." and kept walking.I was shocked. Usually he would hug me and kiss me,but all he said was bye.I kept repeating through the day "what did I do what did i do?" so i messaged him and asked him if everything was okay.The next day I got a message from him saying that it wasn't working out and he just wanted to be friends. I replied asking what i did,but then he blocked me. I had cut ever sense Austin dumped me and well lets say that night I had cut so much I almost passed out. My mom is homeless right now,but she is kinda staying with my sister. My brother and I are staying with my grandmother who is trying to put us in a school were I don't know anyone at all.All the stuff going on has made me so depressed,but I'm trying so hard not to give up.
If you read all that I love you. (:

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