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He doesn't love me anymore.

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Lost my chance

nmf

I'm Hopeless
But Hoping
My Lungs Wont
Fail Me Now
Cause I'm
Still Breathingg

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

 

Dear Bradley,
I understand things didn't workout between us in the past. Theres always gonna be drama and problems even my love for you cant overcome. We've been through alot together. You were my first love. When i kissed you for the fist time in 6th grade i felt that spark. It was amazing and i never wanted that moment to end. My biggest mistake was moving to a new school and leaving you behind. I thouht about you while i was gone. I juss couldn't stand not seeing your face everday smiling back at me as i was walking donwn the hallwayy. I missed you so muchh . I came back in december to our school and you asked me out and we were together againn. I was soooo happyy. Nothing could make me more happier. But than, what do you knoee, we broke up again. I was crushedd. I told myself that i should move on, its not meant to be, but i couldn't get you off my mindd. We went out again, than broke up and repeated the cyclee. I thoguht this was the time, i could finally move on. But i was wrong, cause i still thought about youu. I used to dream about you. In my dreams you were mine forever. I never wanted to wake up, but i knew i had to face realityy. I started slowing trying to not think of you and than Brian came into the picture. I really liked him and started falling for him. We started going out after talking for a month than we broke up because of alot of drama. And i had to go through another heart break and i was juss a mess. I did alot of things i'm not proud of and i juss about hated myself. But as the weeks went on, i started texting you again. You were there for me when i needed you and let me vent to you. You told me you loved and wanted me backk. I was in shockk and i gave you another chance. My life couldn't have been better. I was smiling, stopped cutting myself, had something to look forward too, i got to taste your sweet lips again and feel your warm hug.  I thought we'd be together forever. Than suddenly, you left me for another girl. I cried so much. I couldn't believe i juss lost you like that. Call me crazy, but i was convinced we were gonna get married one day and that you would be my date to 8th grade dance and prom and eveything but my wishes were crushed. I knew there was no way of getting over you. I juss tried to be there as a friend and not let my feelings show. But than a dear friend passed away. R.I.P. Brian <3 . You told me you needed someone there for you and to love you. I told you i would be that person. We went out and it was alot easier to get through the the loss of Brian. Than we broke up for good. There was rumors and alot of stuff going on. I started crying again.
Now i'm writing this letter that i'll probably never show cause i would never have the courage too. But if you ever do cross this letter, juss knoee that i love you and i always love. Everything i said to you while we were dating was true. I never wanted us to end this way but things happen for a reaso. I'll always be here for you through everything and if you ever need something dont hesitate to text me or tell me. Well this is the end of the letter. I love you Bradeyy.
Love,
Xoxo Ellesse <3


 

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Himm ; I need someone to be here for me. Someone to smile at. Someone to love. Can you be that for me?
Me ; Of coursee
Himm ; Thank you i appreiate it
Me ; I'll always be here for you no matter what
Himm ; I wish we were still together. That would make things easier. I would know that someone still loves me and i have hope for a better future

Re-reading our conversations wishing it didn't fade awayy </3
 

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Anyone wanna be my witty bestfriend?

I really think there's a reason that I like him so much. Like something is telling me not to let him go. Every time I follow my heart... it leads me to him. I mean... what other explanation is there. Why is it that he is all I can think about? Why is it that no matter how upset I am... I see him and I can't help but smile? Why is it that when he smiles at me... I get that feeling in my stomach? And even when he'd broken my heart, and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me... when he lied to me... and I hated him... why then did I still feel those same feelings? Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I let him hurt me so much.