Why did I think leaving you in that way was right? It was selfish,
immature, and cowardly. You deserve better than that. I cannot
express how much I regret my decison to bring up how I was feeling
in that way. When I messaged you, I wasn't thinking about the
way in which I was bringing up my feelings. I wanted to do it in
person, but I was impatient and decided to do it over the app we
talk the most on since SMS texting doesn't always go through.
Looking back, you mean more to me than that, and I was acting like
a child. I was holding you to unfair expectations for what we had
defined our relationship as, and then getting upset when you
didn't meet them. I was treating you and expecting you to act
like a boyfriend, when you weren't one. I also should have told
you how I felt sooner, and in a better way. Instead of dealing with
them in a way that was productive, I just blew up our relationship
without thinking it through.