Quotes added on Saturday, November 29 2014
WE ARE LEFT WITH A CHOICE
e i t h e r l e t
the guilt throw
you back into the
behavior that got you into
TROUBLE
in the first place,or learn from the
quilt
AND DO YOUR BEST TO MOVE ON.
grey's anatomy
my ex refuses to acknowledge
what he did to me. before he would
admit that he forced me to do things
I didn't want to do, and now he keeps
saying that I'm lying; that I wanted it.
his excuse used to be that I didn't
fight back "hard enough" or that he
just simply didn't hear me tell him
"stop" and "no" (over and over again.)
but now he says that it never happened,
that I asked for it, that I'm making it up,
and that I never said no, or even struggled.
I didn't want it, at any point. It's not like
I'm trying to get him arrested or anything,
I just want him to admit what he did,
mean it, and not change his story in
order to make him the victim.
what he did to me. before he would
admit that he forced me to do things
I didn't want to do, and now he keeps
saying that I'm lying; that I wanted it.
his excuse used to be that I didn't
fight back "hard enough" or that he
just simply didn't hear me tell him
"stop" and "no" (over and over again.)
but now he says that it never happened,
that I asked for it, that I'm making it up,
and that I never said no, or even struggled.
I didn't want it, at any point. It's not like
I'm trying to get him arrested or anything,
I just want him to admit what he did,
mean it, and not change his story in
order to make him the victim.
" I
should hate you.
I should. I should hate you for forgetting my birthday two years in a row.
I should hate you because the way you scream at me when you’re drunk straight up terrifies me.
I should hate you because you call me at 2:30 AM wishing for her, whispering her name over the phone in my ear.
I should hate you because you’re never on time.
I should hate the way you grip my wrist and refuse to let me go when you’re angry and you’ve got too many pills in your system, the way you get the blood pounding in my ears.
I should hate you because you said you hated me at midnight and by 4 AM you were begging for me to give you another chance, to love you again.
I should hate you because you knew I never stopped, you knew I’d come back.
Goddamit, I always come back to you. Even though I don’t want to. I can never just walk away from you, from this, from us. We are a god damn mess, we are a catastrophe, we are a hurricane. I can’t live without you, but I can’t breathe around you, either. I can’t fall in love with anyone else and I can’t be in love with you. This will kill me. This will break my heart.
This will never end. It would be so much easier if I hated you. But I can’t. I can’t; I love you too much.
I love you too much. ”
I should. I should hate you for forgetting my birthday two years in a row.
I should hate you because the way you scream at me when you’re drunk straight up terrifies me.
I should hate you because you call me at 2:30 AM wishing for her, whispering her name over the phone in my ear.
I should hate you because you’re never on time.
I should hate the way you grip my wrist and refuse to let me go when you’re angry and you’ve got too many pills in your system, the way you get the blood pounding in my ears.
I should hate you because you said you hated me at midnight and by 4 AM you were begging for me to give you another chance, to love you again.
I should hate you because you knew I never stopped, you knew I’d come back.
Goddamit, I always come back to you. Even though I don’t want to. I can never just walk away from you, from this, from us. We are a god damn mess, we are a catastrophe, we are a hurricane. I can’t live without you, but I can’t breathe around you, either. I can’t fall in love with anyone else and I can’t be in love with you. This will kill me. This will break my heart.
This will never end. It would be so much easier if I hated you. But I can’t. I can’t; I love you too much.
I love you too much. ”
