Day 1
I saw your photos of the sunrise on Instagram and the way your
camera lense intensified each shade of wildly beautiful pink and
violet. (Just like they always did.) I can't help wondering
why you were awake at 4 am. Just to see the sunrise, or to show
it to somebody else?
Day 89
It isn't even half past five o'clock in the morning but
I've never felt happier to have been woken up. My alarm feels
like the screaming of banshees, but my text tone sounds more
delightful than three purring kittens. I've unlocked my cell
phone to a picture of the sky seen from out your window every
dawn for the past 3 days. I can see the other side of the clouds
from my house. It's only sensical to respond with my
perspective. Together our pictures of the sunrise give a complete
view of the sky, and Instagram doesn't even know. It's
our secret.
Day 198
I used to enjoy watching dark shades of navy blue dissipate to
leave behind light cyans and golds, and a long period of my life
was spent admiring photos of it. But never had I even dreamt of a
morning where the sun had awoken as brilliantly as this one. If I
had known that to accentuate the beauty of each orange hue was to
watch it from your arms, I would have done it the moment I was
born. The white paint on your windowpane was glowing almost as
brightly as our smiles, and even though we were missing the view
from the other side of the sky, the warmth of your skin made up
for it.
Day 250
I've pulled my shades down so far over my windows that I fear
my neighbors think I've gone crazy. I hear evil cackling from
the horizon every morning when I wake up. I haven't used my
alarm in weeks because I am afraid that I'll accidentally
look right through the sunrise to see you and her smiling
together at the sky on the other side, just like we did. I've
never seen a dark pink that looked so much like blood, and the
only thing as cerulean as the 5 am clouds are my tears. I can
leave school and I can get out of my car, but I can never escape
the sky.
Day 365
I never noticed how the sky holds more beauty than that in the
early hours of the morning. Today, somebody took my hand in their
left and used their right to point higher than the treetops, and
with that small gesture, they taught me that every day I treated
6 pm as it were 6 pm. I made the mistake of hardly noticing blues
darkening to reds and deep violets, or stars emerging where
clouds were once floating. I think someday I’ll find
someone who takes pictures of flowers and watches clouds with me
during any time of the day. And I think as long as the sun
doesn’t crash when it goes to set, I’ll be okay.
r.m.