Lost in numbness for years running from pain trapped in the freezing

Lost in numbness for years
running from pain
trapped in the freezing darkness
constantly numb
pain is better than nothing at all
pain with out reason, a cause, or even love
is all better then being numb
trapped in a world of numbness without a reason
show me a world I understand
pain is all that I have known
no longer able feel anything but pain
life is filled with pain
pain is now a comfort
the only thing I can count on
the one thing I understand
it is all I have
all I feel
for my life is filled with pain
pain is all there is left
when happiness doesn’t work.