I wonder sometimes what kind of person I could have become if The Horrible Thing didn't happen.
I was in kindergarten when it happened, It's haunted me ever since.
I realized recently... it hasn't only tortured my concious mind.
No, it's effected me in ways that you have to dig deep to see.
Right after The Horrible Thing happened, I developed a stutter. I didn't have one as a toddler, as most sttutters do.
I stopped sleeping. I became a raging insomniac afraid of my own dreams as if overnight.
I went from a happy little kid who loved to run and play to a high-strung, senstitive kid who couldn't stop crying.
I developed an anxiety disorder, childhood depression, an eating disorder.
I became shy. I never was before.
I wish The Horrible Thing never happened.
I fear I will never be anything but "scary and damaged" because of it.
Mostly, I just want my childhood back.
I want to know who I could have been without The Horrible Thing having happened.
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