running is like another way of cutting for me. i run until i

running is like another way of cutting for me. i run until i can barely breath, just the heavy breathing as if the next breath will be my last makes me feel better. i run to keep my thoughts away and when someone makes fun of me while i run, i just push harder, each time believing i'm getting one step closer to my final breath. i run because i can hurt myself to keep the emotional pain away but no one can tell because there are no scars for them to see.