So I have to do this thing for school, but when I turn it in

So I have to do this thing for school, but when I turn it in it's gonna be completely different. But i just wanted to put this out here cuz sometimes you just gotta let things out. Right? anyways, here it is.

"I AM"

I am depressed and alone.
I wonder when things will ever get better.
I love making other people happy even if I can't make my own self happy.
I fear that I will end up hurting the people I love
I want to be able to resist the urge of cutting
I am depressed and alone.

I hate making promises because they are always hard to keep
I feel that if I were to die, barely anybody would care
I need so much love and comfort that this earth just can't provide
I worry when I feel like cutting because I know one day i won't be able to control myself.
I cry when I think about my best friend cutting
I am depressed and alone.

I smile when I'm around my friends so they can't tell whats on the inside
I say emotional pain is most of the time a lot worse than physical pain
I dream of one day no more tears and suffering
I hope that I make atleast a few people proud of me in my lifetime
I wish people would realize how much words hurt
I am depressed and alone