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P R O L O G U E .
The worst part about the breakup was that I couldn't remember how it felt to look in Cormac's eyes . I mean, I wouldn't admit that to anyone ever. I would lie and tell people that it was magical, and riveting, and possibly hoarded itself as the best emotional breakthrough that I would ever have. Instead, I replaced whatever was there - in that place where that feeling should be - with a heavily empty sort of guilt. Looking back, I wondered if we had ever truly looked in his eyes. But I mean, I had to have done so. I could easily recall the color blue it was. Not too green, not too grey, but somehow, the blue wasn't overpoweringly bright or cheesy like in the movies or the stories. They were perfect.
But the concept was so silly. I could never replace such a feeling, and I had buried it under so many other feelings, that I knew I might never feel something like that again.
Maybe I didn't want to feel it again.
I mean, because maybe if that feeling came back, I'd think of him.
And then the feeling would just be gone again, and I'd feel the hurt.
The hurt I felt that night, pressing the keys of a phone that wasn't even mine. And the send button, and the way I didn't want to click it.
And how I did click it and I clicked it so hard and so long, my finger hurt. But that immediate pain in my chest, it vanished. And that vanishing was all I needed not to call him, and to take everything back.
Because all that text had said was that everything was over. We, as a couple, Cormack and I, were over.
And it was back the next day, when I saw the back of his head in the cafeteria.
Not even the front of his head, or his eyes. I knew his eyes could hold all sorts of things but I didn't want to know them.
And now maybe I did want to know them, because I could hug him if they were sad or smile with him if he was happy.
But I didn't see. I didn't even try to see.
And now all I want is to look into his eyes again.
Cormac's eyes.
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Should I continue into Chapter One? And oh - comment if you have a relatable story / suggestion for writing. I know it isn't fabulous, but it's a little bit like a memoir for me.
C O M P A R I S O N S A R E E A S I L Y D O N E O N C E Y O U H A V E H A D A T A S T E O F P E R F E C T I O N ""C
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We met in kindergarten. We were best friends.
She always told me she loved my eyes. I didn't quite know why.
I was in love with her, so of course my face lit up immensely whenever she said it.
She was beautiful, kind, and extremely funny.
We'd be talking about nothing, and she'd turn to me and whisper,
"I like your eyes."
One day, I was playing basketball,
waiting for her to drive over to my house to have a game with me.
Suddenly, I got a phone call.
It was her mom. She was in a panic.
I couldn't quite understand what she was saying. It sounded like,
"Aaron, come quick! Kelsey, accident, Main Street! Blood. Come now!"
I had no clue what happened,
so I ran to Main Street with my basketball shorts and a tee shirt on.
I saw Kelsey's mom helplessly crying, waiting for the ambulance to arrive.
I saw a totaled car, blood everywhere.
Then I saw her, Kelsey.
My heart stopped as I frantically ran over to her.
"Kelsey? Kelsey!" She was unconscious. I started crying.
I know it isn't very manly, but I couldn't help it.
Before I could say anymore, the medics took her away,
the main source of blood coming from her head.
I went to the hospital that night,
I went every night.
in fact, the only time I left was to go out to eat, but that's it.
The doctors tried getting me to leave, but I refused.
It was all my fault.
If it wasn't for me, wanting to play basketball with her,
she wouldn't be going through this.
It was already four days, and she hasn't woken up.
On the fifth day, I saw her eyes gently open.
"Kelsey?" I called.
She wasn't quite awake yet.
Suddenly, doctors came rushing in, telling me I had to wait outside.
I did, for a few hours.
One of the doctors finally came out saying,
"I understand that you're Kelsey's friend, Aaron?"
"Yes," I whispered.
He bit his lip.
"She woke up, she's fine,
but I'm afraid she has long term memory loss."
"Are you serious?" I almost shouted.
"I'm afraid so."
I didn't meet his gaze. I couldn't.
I wasn't going to say anything, so he spoke again.
"You can go see her if you want,
but she doesn't remember anything, not even her mom."
I walked in, trembling in horror.
I saw her. She looked helpless as she slept.
I waited a few hours, until I saw her eyes opening gently again.
I expected doctors to run in, rushing me out.
Instead, she looked me straight in the eyes, and whispered,
"I don't know you, but I like your eyes."
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I want a person who
comes into my life by accident,
& stays on purpose.
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When guys get jealous
it's kinda cute (':
When girls get jealous
World war III is about to start.
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