Everyday, she silently watches them, with a knot in her throat

Everyday, she silently watches them, with a knot in her throat and her stomach in a whirl.
She's in pain but she doesnt care the only thing that matters to her is he's happy with her.
She could never make him that happy, he's better off without her. Nothing else matters
except his happiness. She lives to see his big smile and the glow in his eye, even if she,
herself cant do it. She could only dream of a second chance he shouldnt give. She doesnt
matter to him, anymore. She ruined her first chance and doesnt deserve a second. She didnt
realize what she had until she'd lost it, and now he's much happier than she had ever made him.
She realizes she really loves him but it's too late now, he loves another, and she well knows
how much pain he'd go through if she took it all way from him. She couldnt bear to cause him
twice the pain she already did. She'll just suck it up and watch him be happy with another, someone
who really deserves him. And be miserable because that's what she deserves after what she put
him through . ♥