Quotes added on Monday, August 29 2022

here we are again.
trying to turn this fat to bone.
i forget each time the only thing that i lose.
if not friends then brain cells.

this crass carelessness.
this concentrated distraction.
this scatter brained sweaty nonsense.

i hate it all.
why can't i shrivel into bronze brute strength and endless wisdom.
why am i a dehydrated version of my worst self.

time keeps passing and i fall into the same cracks.
this stomach churning.
this hopelessness.

i've seen it all before.
i'm sick of myself but above all else im sick of disappointing you again.

i must have said sorry a hundred times.
i'm sorry for burdening you this much.
you won't have to put up with it much longer.
we joke around a lot and you forgave me each time.

i don't think i can forgive myself.
i don't think i can make it up to you.

just no more mistakes.
and no more second chances.

it really begs the question:
who did i think i was?
no. really, who?