Quotes added on Thursday, September 7 2017
I'm usually really good at blocking you out especially lately but
its 2:26 and I can't fall back asleep. So all those damn memories
of us start creeping back in. Don't want to take those sleeping
meds because wanna go for a run in like two an a half hours. I
don't know why I keep thinking about the very first night I stayed
over. Laying on your living room floor and then passing out on your
bed right after you sat with me for like five minutes telling me to
stay awake... When we came back from tahoe we should of went to san
fran. As scrubby as we looked we should of just headed there when
we could of. I now regret that memory we could of made. Well gunna
see if I can keep my eyes closed a little longer. Sweet dreams 2:35
Thanks to crimson24 for following me
Everytime Im home and check on here its a risk. Every night hes
home we drink. Most of the time I have a beer or two then go to bed
since I work so early. Last night I drank a lot. He did too; but he
passed out pretty early which was weird. I couldnt fall asleep so
ended up taking a bath. Kept drinking and checked on here and saw
that post. Drank more, faster. Now Im at work trying so hard to get
sober cause Im still drunk. Chugging water and just trying to get
it together. Guess we'lp see how this works out. (8:53 thurs)
Sorry I havent posted in ages just because school started 2 days
ago
Wow. well don't do it at home. I've gotta head over to pops's later
to clean up the yard and clear off the porch for our pot luck after
the ceremony tomarrow. Said I'd hang up this screen around the
porch too I guess he always wanted to screen it in so they could
eat dinner out there. Wish I would of knew that I would of did it
for him. This whole things just been crazy. Feel like everyones
claws are slowly coming out but after tomarrow they'll really be
out. Everythings been a "debate" I guess you could say. Pops always
wanted to be barried next to his wife. He bought his plot when she
died but in his last few years everything changed. He was actually
considering just donating his body to science.Just sounds crazy to
me because he was a man of God. He lived by that book. But shoot he
considered letting people buy some of his land to grow pot on too
lol so who knows what he was thinking. Sharon keeps asking me what
I want of his but I can't think of a single thing. I would love
something to keep of his around the house but just can't think of
anything 2:05
